you’d think finishing a second year of university would aliviate stress. Any normal person would, i think, find that the release of pressure to perform would be good for stress levels.
I’d say thats correct, for me anyway, but with one stress over and done with, another very quickly emerges and takes over. Its as if my mind cannot be without stress, stressful thoughts, environments for more than afew days.
So theres a wedding to attend, house to find, birthdays to celebrate, gifts to make, cards to design, parents to please, sisters to cater for ex to get over and all this i’m supposed to do as if im stress free because im the “lucky one” without exams. wooo yay…
i guess they are right, those people who say this “lucky one” business, cause if i did hav exams, i’d still hav all those things PLUS exams. but with exams or coursework deadlines, it almost gives permission for ignoring or sidelining all the above. Theres so much importance placed on exams, grades, passing and qualifications that when the pressure is on surrounding them, they take precedent, without even thinking i think. 
Had the very very last CU meeting last night, as aposed to the week before, which was the very last CU meeting with speaker. last night was prayer and praise, amazing what can happen when everyone starts praying together. Some v cool images on the paintsheet behind us…i’d show you but i didn;t bother taking any fotos. i was pretty much put in my place by God though. needed a good slap, really don’t know what I have been thinking this last few weeks. whatever its been it hasn’t been from God and it certainly hasn’t been the same, constantly changing. emotions and thoughts tend to be like that.
piffle piffle. that was just a little comment for steamy, i lost my wallet on the trams on monday, joy of joys, but the treasure hunt was well good and i enjoyed the clues lots. hehe.
okay so i should prolly get back home and do some hoovering. oh and also maybe start on some birthday present making thing. arg.
til next time..
oh yea, nz visa thing is almost sorted so hopefuly my christmas holiday could be to nz! whey!
